Friday, July 30, 2004

Answering Rhetorical Questions since 1979

Does a bear sh-t in the woods? Well, I can't answer that, but I can say with great authority that a bear will sh-t on my driveway. Lovely.

Tonight is the User Friendly meet at TGI-Friday's in Metrotown around 630. I will be attending with my out of town friends who organized it. Stop on by.

We went to the fireworks on Wednesday as well. Bar none: the best fireworks display I've ever seen. Plus, I've learned...Cotton candy: it's like crack, but BLUE!

Ulti last night was good. We won our first game towards the playoffs. :) Go us! Um...what else? Oh, my last paper is handed in (thank you Dave for editing and handing it in) which means I have one final on Thursday (boo...have to miss Ulti.)

I get to see the Drew and NNY tomorrow! Yayayayay!!

My student is finished his worksheet, so I must dash. Ciao...See you all at Pride!

Thursday, July 29, 2004

Time Limit

Yikes! I promised myself that the end of July was going to be my deadline for getting my police application in...I'd better have it in on Monday... :/ Where the hell has the month gone?!

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Proof... Posted by Hello

Be nice to me... Posted by Hello

Ok, fine. I'll actually talk about the bloody heat. After a really nice cooling off day, it's back up to...21?! It feels soooo much hotter. Yeesh. Maybe because I had a nap? I tend to be warmer when I've just woken up. Maybe it has something to do with blood flow.

Speaking of blood (segue much?) I'm donating blood today. It's been a while. I had my navel pierced two years ago which made me ineligible for a year, then I was either sick, working or maybe being called in to work every time for the next year. So, here I go to the appointment's at 2:50...let's see if I can drag anyone else along. :D

Exercise today: blah.

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Naughtiest thing posted yet.

Not worksafe. May equate as "too much information". Um...yeah.

Click if you're not worried.

Monday, July 26, 2004


This site is really annoying to navigate, but there are some good quizzes on there. There's a semi-not worksafe one at the bottom. Is it severely obvious that I'm avoiding my paper? I think it is!

Awww...I only got 52/100 right

I am feeling so much better.

A couple good nights of good sleep will do that. I'm still sore in various odd right ankle is bothering me currently. I think it got stiff after the drive to Bellevue. It's the one I sprained a year and a bit ago, so it's not that surprising, I suppose. Oh, incidentally, a/c doesn't work very well when you're sitting in a border lineup for over an hour and a half. Yeesh!

I'm gonna go have a mini nap now. Just finished tutoring and I'm at the craft store this afternoon, so I ought to chill for a bit.

Saturday, July 24, 2004

Ow! My everything!

Quick update from the weekend of scary sleep deprivation...please to be forgiving of random stream of consciousness. Did Kata on the Beach with karate this morning. Beautiful...wonderful...we need to do it more often. Loved it. :D Very happy about fun. Stuff. :)

Bellevue today as well for Kit's wedding dress. Much driving ensued. I am so glad that I have air conditioning in my car, since we were stuck at the border for over an hour and a half. It was fun though. Got to hang out with Kit and her friend Lisa...nice person. Yay for Outback Steakhouse! Thanks Kit!!

Then there was more driving. I hate driving in the States. It's scary evil.

I am NOT going to the Ultimate Frisbee team barbeque right now. I will sleep and make myself not sick by sleeping in tomorrow...although since I've been getting up around six for the last four days in a row (NOT because I wanted to!) I don't know if I'll be able to. I will hopefully have a nice relaxing day tomorrow rereading my novels for my paper which is due on Friday.

FRIDAY?! EEK!! At least it's only 1000 words.

*glances at the size of the post* Wow, for what was supposed to be a really short post, this is quite a few words. Sleep zzzzzz.

Exercise today: 1.5 hours karate (kata on the beach)

Friday, July 23, 2004

Just a list

What I did today:
0725-student #1
0815-student #2
0900-driving cars from Coquitlam dealership to Langley buyer and Richmond auction to Coquitlam dealership (total time=7 hours. Total pay=$99 :D )
1630-Kit and I cleaned out my car
1900-Bourne Supremacy

I still have to iron my gi because I am getting up tomorrow morning to do a beach workout for karate (at 0600), then drive to Bellevue to pick up Kit's wedding dress. Yeegah. I think I must sleep.



I'm really not in a good place right now. I'm too emotional over stupid little things and it's moving me around from anger to sadness to "I want to hurt myself" to "I want to hurt something or someone else" and all over the map. I feel helpless and upset and I DON'T LIKE CRYING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE! Or alone for that matter.

Yeah, it's been kind of a sucky day, with occasional good bits thrown in. Good bits include: being told I was loved over and over, prawns/scallops and garlic, playing with the webcam and reconnecting with a friend.

Crappy bits: children at Ultimate, playing really badly and getting frustrated, being misunderstood, getting overly emotional about it all.

I'm feeling very psychically battered today...not like "I can read minds" battered like Deanna Troi, but just "I can't go on being in this place" smashed around. I'm feeling...resigned...and since this is not a happy thing...resigned is not a good thing. My chest hurts and I'm sniffling/semi-crying, my throat hurts and I feel as if I'm going to throw up.

Plus I get to wake up in six hours and deal with people. All. Day. Long.


Exercise today: 1 hour Ultimate

Thursday, July 22, 2004

My cam-girl pose. Posted by Hello

Mm...cookie... Posted by Hello

Gobbling up bandwidth. It's a bunny!! Posted by Hello

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Flu or food?

Something that I've been unable to figure out is the difference between a flu and food poisoning. I know that food poisoning is supposed to last only one day, while flus (flues? flews? :p ) last longer. I'm thinking I have a flu of some description, since I've been feeling crappy for the last couple days, then everything kind of came to a head early (EARLY!) this morning...and I've felt like utter crap all day. My throat is sore, my stomach muscles feel like someone's stapling them to my stomach wall and I've got a piercing headache that comes and goes.

Could someone please send me a body transplant? Thanks. We can start with the gut.

It's weird though...I've always had stomach problems...nausea whenever I get overtired, cramps with my period, stitches when I run, nausea for various random reasons I haven't quite figured out yet. If the world is fair, if/when I have kids, my labour had better be amazingly easy...or else I'll be somewhat put out.

(this possible illness means I might not be going to visit NNY and Drew tomorrow...I'll call and let you know what's going on.)

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

My first photo!! Yeah!! Posted by Hello

I didn't know I scratched my nose so often...

Or that my posture was so bad. I've got a web cam now!! It's um... to video conference... uh... with...people...

Aw, who'm I kidding? We all know what it's gonna be used for. Anyway, I would like to set up the webcam on my blog...but until then, my MSN is on the sidebar...that's where I've learned to use it so far. :) Come visit me!

Monday, July 19, 2004

Rumour mongering

Or: the post that's probably going to get me in major trouble. :)

DISCLAIMER: I'm just being a goof...don't mind me.

Today I took a nap, then handed in my paper. Before going to the university, I called ahead to Dave's to see if I should stop by. Turns out he's not home, busy taking a friend (female) to the doctor's office at about noon, but I can stop by when I'm finished. This is about 2:00. Ok, fair enough. I dawdle a bit and head over after turning in the paper and arrive around 3:00. It's now sign of Dave or female friend and I'm bored of knitting for the time being. Hmmm... So now, it's time to postulate...soap opera style! *thumbs up*

Is she pregnant? Ooh! Cool!! Another baby in the circle of friends! But wait! Why isn't her husband going with her instead? Why...because it's not his child! So Dave's going because...ooh. I don't like the way this one's going. NEXT! about...they're actually an elite crime fighting team from CSIS and the whole doctor's thing is just a front...unless it's code for "We're going to go fight the evil Doctor of Ultimate DOOOOOM". That's not fair! I like costumes and beating people up! I wanna be an elite crime fighting team member.

Ok...what else? Maybe someone needs to be deprogrammed from a cult posing as a group of life insurance salesmen. Or one of them is possessed by demons...posing as a cult...posing as a group of insurance salesmen!

Or perhaps they are out buying me a stupendous present, one which requires both of them to move. OOH!! A PONY!!! YAY!!!

Perhaps the great Canadian novel is being written. Or the great Canadian symphony. Or the great Canadian beer recipe and hockey playbook. Not saying that they're the ones doing it, but perhaps they are witness to the great genius unfolding.

What if they got mugged by overzealous circus clowns. Or worse...MIMES! Because you know, a mime is a terrible thing to waste. (Don't kill me, it was from Robin Hood: Men in Tights)

It's possible that while driving, they ran into a protest over cruelty to banana slugs and joined in the march to Whistler. That could take a while...I think there's an accident on the Sea to Sky highway.

Anyway, there's my list of interesting excuses and suggestions.

Happy Birthday Random Synapses

Yes, we at Random Synapses have bringing people bloggity goodness for one year now. Something I didn't realize is that I started karate the same day I started doing the blog...interesting...

This blog was originally for me to try and do goal-type stuff...let's see how I've been doing:

This was the first series of goals I set for myself.

Online: blog three times a week
Financial:: Pay Candyman, get rid of my credit card bill
Physical I:: Weight down from 167 or so to 150 lbs
Physical II:: Exercise two or three times/week
Personal Space:: Clean my room.
Education:: Do some sort of readings on my own

Here are the first results

Online: blogged many times so far.
Financial:: Um, I haven't opened my credit card bill yet. I'm kind of scared, and I need to buy a gi for karate...
Physical I:: 165 lbs, baybeee! No junk food today either.
Physical II:: Went to karate tonight. Loving it.
Personal Space:: Roughly 350 square feet out of 400 are totally unlivable. The 50 feet equals my bed, some space beside it, my bathroom and a path to each place.
Education:: Currently reading "Power Herbs", and referencing other herbal and aromatherapy books. Tonight I will be researching blisters and how to cure them before my Monday night Ultimate Frisbee game.

Here are my current results

Online: blogged many times so far. :) I've done over 460 posts in 366 days.
Financial:: Still owe C/M some money, but not nearly as much. Credit card is paid off (over $600) and I have a small savings.
Physical I:: about 162 lbs. However, I've gone down two sizes in jeans.
Physical II:: I've been running, doing karate, doing Ultimate...I'm awesome.
Personal Space:: Hm...I think it's at about 150 square feet clean. I started crafting again this year, so that's a lot of stuff taking up a lot of space! (Damn you, clearance yarn! I will defeat you!!)
Education:: I've taken seven classes in the last year, plus done a bunch of research into starting my own business, herbal remedies, aromatherapy, Wicca and fitness.

Overall, I'm pretty happy about how things have gone. It's been just over two years with Candyman now.

Y'know, I think it's time I started calling him Dave. Y'know. Since that's his name and all. :)

(Post actually written at 9:23 PM July 17)

o/~It's Monday Morning...o/~

Just tightening up my paper, which is due today. Thank you to my lovely guy who came over to edit it, encourage me, and then distract me when I was finished so that I didn't beat my brains out over it. I'll be taking it up to the university in a half hour or so. :)

Saturday, July 17, 2004

Doin' that sittin' 'nd eatin' thang.

That's about it. I'm about to unplug my LAN cable now, so if anyone wants me, I'll be at home...but I'm going to try and punch out another five pages on this paper tonight. The Diet Cokes I put in the fridge ought to be cold by now.

Exercise today: 2 hours karate (YEAH! Take THAT, Demon!)

Friday, July 16, 2004

Bear Scare

Holy crap. There's been a bear around our street for the last couple of weeks and there's been another sighting. What is WITH the wildlife the last couple days? Bit of a water shortage or something? So far there's been a rabbit (we needn't get into THAT) (I didn't even know that we had rabbits in this area.), a raccoon this morning, the bear, an eagle at Ulti last night and my brother saw a pair of deer. Yeesh.

Incidentally, *whine* I wanna be downtown with the boys right now. :( I think I should go to bed, get up early and work on my paper with a fresh brain. I'll bring my books with me so that I can shift gears into talking about staple economies (not office depot, hyuck..) rather than Canadian culture. I'm having issues.

I also need to stop reading mommyblogs. I think I felt my uterus go *TWINGE*. (Read the next five as gets funnier.) Twinging is not a good way to stay focused on papers. Now, no one who reads this is allowed to panic. (I would say "you know who you are" but I'm not. :p Besides, there's a couple of you.) I'll be better in a little while. Weather is warm and sunny with occasional babycravings. It's all good.

Hmmm...just a thought. Maybe if I didn't blog so much...or read so many blogs...or webcomics...I might be able to join the guys when they get to go do fun things.

Crazy thoughts.

Exercise today: Just my brain.


One more FREAKING quote to find...out of a mere THREE books that it could be in...and I'm SURE it's at the front of a chapter or essay...AND I CAN'T FIND IT! As soon as I find it, my paper is finished. WHERE THE HELL IS IT?!

*breathes again* Yup.'s definitely too hot in here.

***UPDATE*** 1:58 pm. Hmph. Fine. I can't find it, so I'm just changing around what I'm backing up in my conclusion. Just finishing off my bibliography. Now, barring my computer exploding and catching everything around it on fire, my paper is finished.



Um...I'm going to move my paper away from my computer. You know...just in case.

Time zones

It's sometimes lousy to be in the Wet coast time zone, especially when you get woken up at 0600 by Toronto people who think the time is the same all over the world, or when you realize at 2 pm that you need to call a bank...but head office is in Ontario, so they're already closed. However, sometimes it's a good thing, because you can get your news just that much faster.

This feels weird. Usually I don't talk about stuff in the news. I think the election was one of those few things. Huh. Well, back to the paper. Speaking of which...where's all those brilliant ideas from everyone? :)

Thursday, July 15, 2004


I hit a rabbit on the Lougheed Highway tonight on the way home from Ultimate. It was like:

*mini-swerve toward median*

I'm kind of sad now. Not super much because I believe in the whole "natural selection" thing, and it wasn't like it was someone's pet. No splatter on my car though. I kind of feel like I should go back and check to see if it's dead or not, but I don't think I could deal with the gore factor. This is the biggest thing I've ever "directly" killed. Not even mice or frogs or anything.

Exercise today: 1 hour Ultimate. I was lazy tonight...lots of women to play.


I REALLY don't like some of the stuff Blogger's doing. I want my default to be "edit in HTML" not WYSIWYG (What You See Is What You Get). *grumble* My stomach hurts. I think I'll go grab a coke slurpee (yup, THAT kind of hurts) before Ultimate tonight.

I'm almost finished my first paper. Thank Deities.

I saw Halle Berry on Leno just now cracking a single tail. Ye gods. Pretty lady. :) Despite the storyline not having anything to do with the comics, I'm looking forward to Catwoman. Any time I get to enjoy watching a woman kicking ass is good times for me. I get all inspired again. :) Short attention span requires that I get inspired frequently.

Sorry for the boring posts lately, but I've been mostly working on papers and avoiding working on papers. As soon as they're finished I plan on doing a bunch of knitting. I have a couple of projects going (Drew's blanket WILL be finished before she's one!) and enough yarn now to clothe a medium sized village. I truly have a sickness. I have decided that yarn is no longer allowed to go on clearance at work, and if it does, people are not allowed to draw my attention to it by bringing it through my till. :) Incidentally, if anyone is going to make...I don't know...a baby blanket...CHECK YOUR GAUGE!! This blanket is about three times as big as I thought it was going to be. Ah well. It'll be finished by the time it's cold enough for Drew to need it, plus it'll be big enough for her to use until she's in kindergarten. :)

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

So very haircut entry.

A very nice thing about having a boyfriend with long hair? I've been collecting elastics like crazy the last couple of weeks. Wearing my hair down, then getting sick of it after an hour and elastic-jacking a couple of his. :)

Went to see King Arthur the other night. It was pretty good. I know who I'm dressing up as for the next costume event. :) It shouldn't be too hard. The costume's all straps.

Lame: I think I miscounted how many laps I did on Monday. :( I did a LOT more jogging today and my time was exactly the same.

Exercise today: 1 lap each warmup/cool down, 6 laps (1.5 miles)-16 minutes

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Ebay listing

Anyone a Princess Bride or WWF fan? Own a piece of it.

Monday, July 12, 2004


Thank you everyone who's commented so far on my depression post. I've already been using some of it, especially the "baby steps" idea and "F.U. depression...I'm in charge" and *cross fingers, knock wood* I'm feeling a bit more in control. For example...look down just a little.

Exercise today: 400 m walking to warm up, 2.4 km walking and jogging (16 minutes...down 1 minute from last time)

Yay! I did that this morning after tutoring.

Sunday, July 11, 2004

Essay Topics

For those of you who have expressed an interest in the papers that I'm writing, or would like to lend a hand, here are the topics:

Paper the First

(due July 16, 2000-2500 words)
Consider the following statistics: "97% of film distribution in Canada is controlled ouside the country; foreign-controlled publishers and agencies account for 75 percent of Canadian textbook sales; and fourteen foreign-controlled companies wer responsible for 66 percent of all new releases and 84 percent of total sales in the recording industry in Canada during 1993-4" (Borderlands: How we talk about Canada, W.H. New, 1998). This is the state of the national boundary-line: unstable. But, is it inevitable? Write an essay discussing Canada's cultural industries and its cultural survival.

Paper the Second

(due July 19, 10 pages/3000 words)
Many aspects of staples theory were developed to address particularities in Canada’s historical path of economic, social, and cultural development. As globalization proceeds apace, however, some would argue that the relevance of staples theory to Canada has declined at the same time that the circumstances described by staples theorists have increasingly come to characterize the situation of other countries in Latin America, Africa and elsewhere. Critically assess the merits of this position.

MY THESIS: The relevance of staples theory to Canada has declined at the same time that the circumstances described by staples theorists have increasingly come to characterize the situation of other countries in Latin America, Africa and elsewhere.

I have a bit more on the second one in the way of outline. Comment if you want my outline. :)

None of this is real.

Depression and hormones are a nasty combination. I need to keep reminding myself that I'm really not feeling this way...although really, I am feeling it. Confused yet? I know I am. Incidentally, this isn't a cry for help or anything. In fact, I'm feeling pretty good today, just a bit tired. So, feel free to give advice in the comments (as long as it isn't just "snap out of it" or "get over it") I mostly just want to write it down to get a perspective on it in a couple of days.

I haven't been officially diagnosed as clinically depressed or manic, but depression is as good a buzz word as any. In my case it manifests less as intense sadness, although that's been happening much more lately as well. Quite often, it's a little voice (I think I'll name it The Demon) who prods me with thoughts of failure, fears of failing and "what's the point?" and "we all just end up dead anyway" thoughts. He's a fun guy to have at parties. */sarcasm*

One result of this is that I need to force my body to do things. Most people think "Hmm...there's a piece of paper on the floor. I'll just grab it." and then they do it. For me, it's a huge effort. I get tired as soon as I think about doing housework, homework or physical activity. I will have a backpack, purse or shopping bag in my car on the passenger seat and I physically will NOT be able to reach over and grab it to take into the house, so I'll leave it there and be worried about getting broken into.

Anything with multiple steps in it is horribly difficult. If I need to get changed to go to the gym or the track, there's no way I can do it. Getting gas is an ordeal. I'll be too tired to stop and get gas for five minutes. I will miss things that I love, like karate, because the thought of ironing my uniform, getting in the car, driving there and changing into my uniform frightens me. Isn't that pathetic? :p

Then of course, when I miss doing exercise or going to karate or something, The Demon pops up and tells me what a failure I am for missing out on whatever it is. This makes me feel worse of course.

Another fun thing that happens is that I'll have intense worries spinning through my head as soon as I lie down to go to sleep. It's stupid things, usually, but that doesn't stop them from running around and around until I want to scream with frustration and lobotomize myself with a Q-tip.

I've been more emotional lately. I got very affected by a "You Damn Kid" comic and kept getting teary eyed whenever I thought of it. It's so incredibly annoying. When I get frustrated, I'll start crying. I hate that. I despise crying, especially in front of people, which frustrates me even more. I seem to remember being more intelligent. :p Maybe that'll be solved with more sleep.

I've been reading a couple of blogs from people who are on, have been on, or are trying to wean themselves off of anti-depressants, and I don't think that's the way to go for me yet. I've had some counselling at the university last year which seemed to help. Anyone have any suggestions?

Saturday, July 10, 2004

La ti da di da.

I should be working on a paper right now. In fact, there are numerous things I should be doing right now. Instead, I'm at Candyman's house waiting for my lunch to be ready and blogging like a lady of leisure. I surprised him this morning and came over to visit after going to a martial arts casting call downtown. It was ok, I guess. I didn't have the right chromosomes for what they're looking for as a fighter, but I might get in as an extra. Who knows? So I came over and we watched an episode of Highlander and that's my day so about yours?

Friday, July 09, 2004


After pretty much not sleeping over the last three days, and having craptacular sleep the last two weeks, I am happy to report that the Random Synapses team received 9 SOLID HOURS of sleep last night. I am very very happy. I didn't realize how depressed I'd been over the last week or so. I do not understand how mothers of infants can push themselves through that. I am so impressed, and a little frightened of the thought of having a child of my own. I think I'll adopt one when they're...twenty or so. That way they can pay rent, and I won't have to feed them at night. They can make their own damn sandwiches. :)

Thursday, July 08, 2004


Or: the post in which I muse about why it is that I seem to be ending upside down briefly during my recent workouts. And also landing on my head.

Ulti was fun tonight...after really sucking badly. We played a team which doesn't really know the meaning of "Spirit" or "sportsmanship" but then we played a game with an awesome team. In the first game I made a wicked bid for the disc, barely missing it as I dove for it and rolled...somehow landing on my head at one point... I got many cheers though. :) I got to score a point in the second game...perfect set play execution on everyone's part. :)

Exercise today: 2 hours Ultimate

Public Service Announcement

Please note that none of the following; darkness, ice, light, shadow, nature, ELECTRICAL (yes, electrical...not electricity. Technically electricity might count...follow the link below) are ELEMENTS. Scientifically, elements are many things, but most commonly is "A substance that cannot be reduced to simpler substances by normal chemical means and that is composed of atoms having an identical number of protons in each nucleus." Metaphysically, it refers to earth, air, water and fire...possibly also spirit or soul. In Chinese astrology, the five elements are metal, water, wood, fire and earth. It could also refer to types of weather, ie: left out in the elements. However, that is not the way that it is being referred to. DARKNESS IS NOT AN ELEMENT!!! ICE IS NOT AN ELEMENT.
Thank you.


Ahem. I'm in kind of a bad mood today...not so that anyone would notice...or anything. Heh. Heh...I need to get some more sleep, methinks.

I do believe...

...someone should invent a way for people to eat peanut butter and jam/jelly without all that unnecessary bread to get in the way. A way besides scooping peanut butter out of the jar with a spoon, then following it with a chaser of honey or jam...

Not that I've ever done that. Nope...not me... :)

Stupid "falling asleep at 800 and having my brother come home and start playing records in the basement next to my room at midnight." Grrrr.

Good raspberry jam though. Too bad there's all that bread getting in the way.

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Snagged from peanut

Karin Highway
County Jail6
Loony-Bin Lane18
Mt. Happiness133
Childbirth Hospital224
Please Drive Carefully

Where are you on the highway of life?


*pats self on back*

I managed to go into not one, but TWO stores which I would normally buy one (or ten) things from and walked out without taking anything home with me. I am very happy. Incidentally, Abraham Books on Commercial Drive is a really neat bookstore. Unfortunately (fortunately?) they didn't have anything that I really super NEEDED to buy...many things I was interested in though. And I got to have ice cream today. That was good.

Since I wasn't doing enough of this lately...*loves Drew!* *kisses!* :)

Exercise today: walked 12 blocks or so

Monday, July 05, 2004


I think I figured out what that old wives tale about how "if your nose is itchy it means you're going to kiss a fool" works. Only a fool would want to kiss you while you're sneezing and the nose in question is running like crazy. Gahh.. I think I blew about ten IQ points out today at work. I had to make a tissue run like three times in four hours. Yeesh. Could someone please turn off the pollen for a little while?!


The little problem I alluded to a couple of days ago has cleared up. I misunderstood what the situation was. Happy joy!


Frogs chirping...crickets croaking... ;) The world is REALLY empty of human noises at 3:40 Monday mornings. Yeesh. I think I saw about three cars on the way home from Candyman's just now.

I just wanted to share that with everyone. :D Now I really ought to go to bed since I work tomorrow morning. :)

Exercise yesterday: tossed the disc around a bit

Sunday, July 04, 2004

Hokay, it's all good.

It's all better now. Ye gods, yesterday was bad. :p But it's all good now. Especially after C/M came over to make me feel better and we did some sparring in the backyard. :)

Saturday, July 03, 2004

I'm so weak sometimes.

Sometimes you just want to say yes, but you also want to say no...and you hope that it's taken out of your hands...but only in the way that you want it. And it's so hard when you're really not sure exactly what you want to happen.

At least I didn't say yes.

I had a beer tonight for the first time since I don't know when. I guess I'm not a non-drinker anymore. And you know what? I'm ok with that. I have many reasons...not just the one that most of my Dear Readers will immediately think of...and right now, none of them are very good. Expensive: I've got several bottles in my cupboard, already paid for. One might argue that it would be more expensive (at least per volume) if I didn't drink them. Health: I haven't been eating much junk food...this will be my junk food. Besides, I worked out today.

Exercise today: 1 1/2 karate


About a week ago I found out that a place I'd thought was above this kind of thing actually has some cliquing and some apparently rather nasty politics going on. I really hate that. I guess it was a little naive in that I figured it was immune. *sigh* I guess it just shows that whenever you get more than one or two people together there's going to be some backbiting and bitching. How depressing. :( Nothing I can really do about it though...and I don't really want to, since I don't know the details...only what one person briefly mentioned to me. I don't even know who the other person/people are who are involved. I figure the best thing for me to do is what I always do: keep my own honour and stay as neutral as I can.

But tarnishes things a bit.

I had the weirdest dream last night.

I can practically hear everyone rolling their eyes at that one. :) Don't worry, it'll be quick. It mostly involved Justy, Bimkins and myself driving up to SFU at 0700 (oddly enough, that was the time I woke up this morning) so that the guys could get to a registration meeting for rowing and classes (?! I don't know what that was all about either). After some discussion of girl on girl bondage anime (not something that the three of us would probably ever discuss...) we started talking about papers...more specifically, the fact that I've got two ten pagers due in two weeks and I'm really stressed about it. (Obviously, because I'm dreaming about it.) One of them mentioned that if I was to do a page each day on each of them, I'd finish them off.



Would you believe that I've never thought about it in that way before?! I've been taking courses at the university for the years...and I've always stressed about papers, and now I think my subconscious has finally gotten sick of that. Woo, says I. Woo, indeed.

Sidenote: in my dream we had stayed up all night until 0700, so when I woke up this morning (after sleeping from about 2030 last night) I thought I'd stayed up all night, despite the fact that I wasn't really tired. It took me until I'd gotten up to take my shower to realize that since I was DREAMING about staying up all night, I was actually asleep and thoroughly rested. :p Heh. Maybe I should take a nap.

Friday, July 02, 2004

Fun, fun.

You have got to love a job that allows you a couple of minutes every so often to blog. :) My student is currently working on her workbook, so I've got ten minutes to catch up on my blogroll and do a quick blog.

*whine* My back and neck hurt today...not sure exactly why. Might have slept funny, or Ultimate might have done it. I'm really tired today as well. I think I'll try to get to sleep as soon as I get home and do a few things. I'm getting a little worried about homework. I think I'll be pulling back from friends for a week or so to try and make sure everything stays on schedule. :p I need some more self control...less random internet surfing and more homework/sleep.

Awa' wi' ye!

I've been particularly succeptible to the hiccups today. I was at C/M's Ultimate BBQ, and after the game I got the hiccups really badly for at least fifteen minutes. This was the first time in a REALLY long time. Now, I just got home and I've got them again. Ugh. I hope I don't get them for 57 years like that one guy. I'm sure by the time I read the comments I'll be finished with them...but just in case, everyone tell me what your hiccup remedy is. :)

(update: 12:35-Ooh. I think they're gone...apparently reading webcomics is a hiccup remedy. Who knew?! Please do send me your remedies though. I'm interested.)

Thursday, July 01, 2004

June Referrers

• MSN Search: gragh paper
• MSN Search: sex bracelet games
• MSN Search: 3rd percentile gragh
• Yahoo! Search Results for "people with iq over 130"
• MSN Search: bertuzzi screen saver
• MSN Search: sports teams cross-stitch patterns
• MSN Search: centerpieces teenage birthday
• MSN Search: domme, amazon tendencies
• MSN Search: strip solitare
• Yahoo! Search Results for quadracept
• Google: sorethumbs webcomic
• Yahoo! Search Results for sexy chinese secretaries in london
• Google Search: buffy-entire musical episode
• MSN Search: "lipton chicken noodle soup" and customer service
• MSN Search: poolhall junkies movie sayings -- More Useful Everyday
• Yahoo! Search Results for @[smiley: fat woman 3: [10/10_8_10]]
• Google: "slurpee-recipe"
• MSN Search: quadracept -- More Useful Everyday
• Google: "i'm in the basement"+smallville
• MSN Search: sophie's world the garden party what does it mean
• Google: "you cried i wiped away all your tears" all of me
• Google: "the week in pictures" cat bath
• MSN Search: creation date of macdonald's happy meal
• Google Search: "buckley's cough syrup" +breastfeeding
• MSN Search: "taller than my boyfriend"
• Google: "iq over 130"
• MSN Search: incubus's sketches -- More Useful Everyday
• Google: sting's iq
• MSN Search: quadracept -- More Useful Everyday


I got this from Donna.

You are an SRCL--Sober Rational Constructive Leader. This makes you an Ayn Rand ideal. Taggart? Roark? Galt? You are all of these. You were born to lead. You may not be particularly exciting, but you have a strange charisma--born of intellect and personal drive--that people begin to notice when they have been around you a while. You don't like to compromise, but you recognize when you have to.

You care absolutely nothing what other people think, and this somehow attracts people to you. Treat them well, use them wisely, and ascend to your rightful rank.

Ye flipping gods. This is so amazingly incorrect that I can't believe that this is the same stuff I imput into the quiz.

Exercise today: 1 hour Ultimate

Happy Canada Day

Some of these are not work safe. Breasts and bottoms and beautiful artwork. :)

Earth girl
You are a true nature girl!

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