Awe and Panic and Drug Reactions

I keep looking at the pictures of what will very shortly be my home in awe.

Then I look around the reality of how much stuff I have to do before I move, and I am panicked.

Then I realize that I took the wrong anti-histamine because of my dust allergies and that the panic reaction I'm feeling is a purely physical reaction to the anti-histamine that's causing my heart to race and slight dizzy-ness and dry mouth...all valid panic reactions. I hate that my mind gets that I've got these physical reactions and then decides to give them the "fear" label. *snarl* Let's turn this into something positive, brain...hokay? Hokay.

Now I have to go tutor to go pay for my half of what will shortly be my home.